“For God alone my soul waits in silence, for my hope is from him.” (Psalm 62:5)
No “Preacher & Seeker” today, beloved reader. It surely is apparent that I am both Preacher and Seeker. I think to one degree or another we all are. There is the “Preacher” part of us, which is based on our experience of the Divine and the religious instruction we have received. That may have been from a fellow believer, minister, instructor or professor – or from the Holy Presence. And there is the “Seeker” part of us who longs to know more and expresses an understanding that reflects our learning curve. In my writings sometimes “Seeker” has wonderful insights and instructs “Preacher”; our desire to learn more about the Lord God pushes our growing edge and informs that part of us which holds confirmed understandings, as well as challenging them. There was a time, when I first started using that motif, that Preacher always taught and Seeker always was the learner and the one new in faith. But that did not reflect me, in my faith, so the two intermingled to become a duet in speaking to and about scripture.
Today, however, the line between the two is too close to use one voice, or the other – perhaps both at the same time. I think it is more likely, however, that I am sitting in silence.
“He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken.” (Verse 6)
I am firm in the Lord, even if silence is my mode of communication. Or at least that is what I aspire to. Maybe it is my “shakiness” that makes me reluctant to take on the duet of voices. I do not feel sure enough to “preach”; and I do not feel strong enough to “seek.” So in silence I read this passage.
“On God rests my deliverance and my honor; my mighty rock, my refuge is in God. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah” (Verses 7 – 8)
How Preacher and/or Seeker would would in a clear and strong voice proclaim this. Maybe one or the other would give testimony to it. Me, I “climb” upon these words clinging to the footholds to get above the turmoil that I feel around me. I would try to pour out my heart, but most probably the Holy Spirit would to speak for me, for my groans are too deep for words.
“Those of low estate are but a breath, those of high estate are a delusion; in the balances they go up; they are together lighter than a breath. Put no confidence in extortion, and set no vain hopes on robbery; if riches increase, do not set your heart on them.” (Verses 9 – 10)
Here the psalmist and I agree; we cannot put stock and faith into what the world values.
“Once God has spoken; twice have I heard this: that power belongs to God, and steadfast love belongs to you, O Lord. For you repay to all according to their work.” (Verses 11 – 12)
At this words, my head lifts up from my Mighty Rock, my Refuge. My being belong to the Divine, and the Divine has shown to be steadfast in love. And I have worked for the Lord, under the Guidance of the Holy Presence, and feeling the blessing of the Divine. I can therefore hope the grace and mercy of the Lord God will be with me.
As this new year flows past us, beloved reader, may you – at times – listen in silence to the Lord God. And may you find the refuge and strength that you need. Shalom & Selah!